Integrity, the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles, is something that I've been thinking about a lot lately. My integrity is strong, but it was called into question this week. I felt humiliated. I felt like I was being called a liar. I felt like I was being called out for doing something wrong (even though I haven't done a darn thing wrong - except ask for help).
I have shared with some that I could have left everything exactly the way it was at my current job and not tried to see alternative solutions to problems that let us work smarter, not harder, but I didn't. I saw the opportunities for efficiencies and I created them. I built relationships in my small little world and in the wider world. I managed to decrease the amount of paper used by A LOT, but I don't have a percentage to go with that. That's the hardest thing about being in distance learning - it's highly invisible.
It was something that I didn't have to struggle with when my supervisor understood distance learning and had an incredible amount of integrity, but he's moved on. Now, there are people who insist on being difficult and will do whatever they can to question others' integrity.
But, I am going to choose to listen to my loving friend that said, "Don't ever feel like what you've done is wrong. God gives us integrity. That's what he wants from us - to have integrity. That's all we have; our integrity." These words are so true, but I don't do well at fighting when my integrity is called into question. I prefer flight versus fight, so my prayer is that I can move on.